Grimes - Genesis

I cannot believe my luck, or divine mercy, or eerie intuition.

I cannot fucking believe it.

31:14

My boss is quitting at my workplace. My writing doesn't want to be wrapped. My boss was one of the main great things about working at my workplace and working with him was one of the few good things Wichita bestowed upon me.

I missed the damn bastard, I miss him even more now after his farewell email. I'm not about to cry as much about him as I did over S. but it is quite a blow.

It was a hell of an honor to work for such a brilliant and understanding guy with leadership T.T

Mundus ipse est ingens deorum omnium templum

The world itself is a huge temple of all the gods

-Seneca

When I am called to pay taxes on life, I find some relief in the stoic meditations of yore.

I hope I always remember that Seneca, Epictetus, Marcus Aurelius and so on are a page away, a thought away.

But most importantly, I hope I can always meditate enough their teachings that it would stick once and for all and be part of my psyche.

I sometimes worry that I don't assimilate well enoug ideas that I find worth keeping and applying. 

But in the deafening silence of administrative procedures and the instabilities over my future, I realize that many things that used to get to me no longer get to me, and things I never faced before are easier to confront, perhaps not so much to deal with, but at least to confront in the first meeting.

So I am enclined to think that I understand how to deal with a range of life taxes, and that with more life, more diverse forms of life taxes come. And it may be that I need some first digestion and loss to adapt, assimilate and think them through first.

But in the end...

Oh fuck me, it just keeps getting hardcore and I hope I can keep getting hardcore with it as well.