I wish

People in my building are so noisy I ended up waking up. It takes a LOT to wake me up.

I was having one of the beautiful recurrent dreams I don't get to have at will.

I wish to be a cube or in that purple cube in the sky.
I wish all those liters of orange juice don't get stolen.
I wish I paid attention to what the old man was telling me instead of urging him to answer my own questions.

I wish for so many things right now.

This car?

Saw this car while comong back from the gym today.
First time I ever see such a small prismatic little beauty.
I need to google that.

Asuka being a badass

Just Saying

Duck Duck Go is the one.

Within

Daft Punk's RAM is the best album since Interstella.

My current jam is this one.

Here we go again

I want my EVA. I want my EVA now. Where's PX-1? I want PX-1! You promised me PX-1!

Is it too muh to ask to be an EVA pilot? My tiny self did ask for a big thing back then but now I've grown I think it's not that big anymore in comparison. I want an EVA so bad I could actually sell my soul to SEELE.

Slumber Party

Enjoy while you can, because afterwards...

eh.

I love those angels

Since my first encounter with them, I had a thing for the angels of N.G.E.

Specially Ramiel:

 

I wish there were more pictures of it, from different angles you know, to admire the complexity of its shape.

Under many types of brightness....That would have killed in the EVAGenesis forum.

Neon Genesis Evangelion

It will get me dizzy to read in the bus but N.G.E. is N.G.E.

Childhood friendships can't just be disciplined. I'm going for a read-over session.

Hi again, part of Koroonful that wanted to be an EVA pilot.

Cthulhu fhtagn

In his house at R'lyeh dead Cthulhu waits dreaming.

----H. P. Lovecraft

In such godforsaken hour

If my ability to screw myself surprises me every-effing-time, for the better or the worse, my ability to just get over it in ten or twenty breaths merzmerizes me so much I stay in an awed contemplation at those subtle whispering unpredictible and overwhelming mechanics of my selves.

Overspecialize

 Ghost In The Shall on rewatch.

Because we need a guy like you.
Number one you're an honest cop
number two you've never stepped out of the line
number three you're a family man
and except for the slight brain augmentation, your body is almost completely human
if we all reacted the same way we'd be predictible and there's always one more way to view a situation
what's true for the group is also true for the individual
it's simple: overspecialize and you're breeding weakness. It's a slow death

Sealing Knowledge

I can remember
A long time ago
Long before my birth
I was waiting with those who are not yet born
When we'ren ot born yet, we know everything
Everything that would happen

Mr. Nobody on rewatch.

This reminds me on Sephiroth's conversation with Garland in Dissidia 012:

We often hear that memories can be suppressed. Watching him, I find myself thinking…Perhaps we are born knowing everything, but are only allowed to live after having had that knowledge sealed away.

Angel Sanctuary

A state of restlessness that is quite serious. I did it. I will therefore be able to handle it.

I'm aware it is one of them phases where my perspective is so narrow I only see the black spot of that big artwork. And 1984 isn't a healthy choice for a pick-me-up.

Besides, as soon as I was done with the damn book, I was thinking of another Palahniuk marathon - wtf- then I thought of A.S. - what the freaking f- and then I though of the Tablets of Thoth - I mean come on-.

All my intake lately has been a whirlpool of sufferance, manipulation, grief, and more of manipulation under headless or inexistent gods' eyes. I need a FRESH PERSPECTIVE, not other nails for my coffin.

Whatever you say Adam K.

Need a break.

1984 by George Orwell in my ears.

I'm trying to deal with the fact that I'm done with RG Veda, once again, and for now.

I really should work on that emotional wreck and mindfuck I have to go through every fucking time I have to read over or watch over or play over something that is extremely dear to me. I mean wtf, how am I supposed to explain my gloom to colleagues and acquaintances? I won't always be available to be emotionally and psychologically retarded. I have commitments. I will have more.

If only my fucking facial expression and my fucking voice weren't that fucked up.

Thank you Kujaku

And the rest of the dreadful...

That dreadful part

Poor, poor Karouybinga.

I'm NOT crying. I tell it when I cry..usually...
I get all Taishakuten's actions, but when it comes to Karura-ô, I don't. She was abiding by his rule and a good pawn and nothing was too pricy so why would you go for the weakling that she loves? why?

Yasha-ô and Ashura-ô

No poo for one year

I just realized: I've been champoo free for more than a year by now.

Awesome times with Path'

She showed me this Southern-african band and they ROCK.

Plus, their videoclips are a the kind of treats I enjoy.

My little sister on the video though:

-"I find you creepy and it's scaring me out."

Aïcha

Strange Circus

On rewatch.

This might be a bad idea given the fact I have to wake up at 5h30 and this movie tends to send me on a cerebral overdrive.

Ô Ashura-ô

Through RG Veda once again

My first CLAMP ever. My first manga ever.

And let me tell you something : when you are 10 years old or so and your first experience with manga is RG Veda, it's basically losing your virginity in a BDSM gangbang with 2G1C and 1G1J types of people.

If I concentrate, I'm a kid again, crying herself to sleep because everyone's sufferance is resonating harshly and deeply within me and the gods get beheaded and can't look for their creations and I don't know how to help or ease anyone's pain and the way Karyoubinga went was so cruel and in fact everyone doesnt die peacefully and doesn't seem to have achieved what he/she wanted and poor Ashura and...and..and..you can't confide in anyone, not even the boy who brings you the MANGA magazines since he doesn't even bother reading them himself -unless for the yu yu hakusho parts.

But I'm not there, I'm gone

I'm Not There on rewatch.

I have to admit: Sonic Youth made a beautiful rendition of the original Dylan song. The movie OST is beautiful in fact.

This stare

It says it all.

Ghost in the Shell 2.0 on rewatch

Sending a Dream To The Universe

Once Upon a Time, I thought I disliked music and it was one of those things that didn't speak to me.

Then, one as Nobuo came by and my soul melted. After, second as Susumu reached me and my heart wasted.

As much as I loathe the overwhelming power the music of these two have over me, however I pity my being for melting and wasting away at the uninterested works of fellow humans, I still send prayers whenever I'm praying, as soon as I remember them, in their names, sending prayers for these two ar tonelicos of my own.

May I stop being before your music ceases.

I know I'm starting to be dead sleepy when :

• I don't recognize my right from my behind.
• I start thinking Pyramid Head is in Resident Evil and Pinhead is in Silent Hill.
• Gozu starts making sense.
• I strongly believe somehow, I will be paid 300 dhs if I pee myself.
• I start wallowing in  Leto related pity because I'm thinking Leto died.

Just saying

One of these days, I will die out of my overlove to Final Fantasy VII.

Reproducing and dying

Puppet Master: I refer to myself as an intelligent life form because I am sentient and I am able to recognize my own existence, but in my present state I am still incomplete. I lack the most basic processes inherent in all living organisms: reproducing and dying.

Major Motoko Kusanagi: But you can copy yourself.

Puppet Master: A copy is just an identical image. There is the possibility that a single virus could destroy an entire set of systems and copies do not give rise to variety and originality. Life perpetuates itself through diversity and this includes the ability to sacrifice itself when necessary. Cells repeat the process of degeneration and regeneration until one day they die, obliterating an entire set of memory and information. Only genes remain. Why continually repeat this cycle? Simply to survive by avoiding the weaknesses of an unchanging system.

Cyborg Fever

Of all the cyborgs I know, I relate to major Kusanagi the most.

The constant look for the humanity within one's self.
The constant investigation in one's own discipline and psyche.
The quick decisions and the going on with consequences.

There was a time I wished I had a powerful cyborg body. If such time was to be repeated and such wish was to be granted, I wouldn't regret having Kusanagi's body as much as the next cyborg.

But then again, in a universe where I can get to be a ghost in the shell, why not a tecknohuman, an EVA or biomechanic form of existence of my own demise.

I need to go to sleep.

Viva forever

Go team Ghibli!

Making a friend discover Ghiblis.

In Memoriam

 

'We hereby commit our beloved
Into the eternal rest of thy kingdom
Into the dreams of thy gentle arms
Neither great nor small are we
Off into the distance we go, only to be born again
And thus we are called the far wanderers.
Though we wander the earth seeking thee
No answers are we given
Naught but shadows do we see in this troubled world
Yet we know not fear
The words of silence are known to us
And as we see the unseen
We are thee and thou art us
This far wanderer we now commit to thee'

 Rest in peace, Oliver.

Chroniko No Melody

Kaiba en rewatch. The only thing I came to reproach to this wonderful jewel is the lack of emotional causality after the sacrifice of Vanilla... The only thing though.

Baby steps, Oru'! Baby steps!

My Elin lancer is coming on nicely. First impressions are positive: TERA is a beautiful game with a promising stroyline and many classes and options.

It's too bad it doesn't let you personalize the stats of your character as you want. Still, the glyphes system is all up to me so I won't be complaining.

The lancer is the tank of this game and at first sight, it seems that tanking can be done by other classes as well. I'm not sure how it is going to be here but I do hope it will be better than Neverwinter.

Dreamwriting vs Dreamreading

I accidentally stumbled upon this on the internet and I don't know where a comicstrip from Hard-boiled Wonderland and the End of the World is hiding but I WANT IT. The artwork seems beautiful.

I believe it's an extract from the dreamreader time at the library.

As a dreamwriter, I find dreamreading and dreamlistening to be such a selfless act. Of course when it is sincerely performed. It's such a selfless act.

Tea Child

I will never understand the child serving on tea in fancy coffee shops.

Going through Choke again.

The universe can and it does change topology. At the quantum level spacetime looks like FOAM that changes continuously. There is a paper by Aspinwall-Greene-Morrison that proves this in string theory. No one knows how to prove it independently but, even if string theory is proved wrong, it is the expected behavior of Quantum Gravity.

We don't have the technology...

I'm sorry sir but we can't fully restore your memories: the virtual experiences programmed within your ghost will have second effects and we don't have the technology yet to solve such matters.

Ghost In The Shell on rewatch.

Are you okay, Koroonful?

Yes. I'm okay random colleague playing it nice.

And I'm aware that not furthering my talk with details doesn't make you believe me but dude, how am I supposed to tell you that whenever I'm taking my mind out of a book, it's like being expelled from the womb all over again with the whole grief-loss-cut-the-ombilical-cord-so-it-doesn't-crawl-back syndrom?

How can I convey to you how dephased I am regading what is surrounding me when I have an audiobook playing in my ears and it's fucking my brain up?

How do you want me to tell you in less than a sentence -because after one sentence, you just want to interrupt me and be done already geez - that when I open my mind to ideas that are described and explored I'm like an Alice chasing rabbits and I don't cease to be fascinated by what I'm encountering, trying to get to the bottom of it without losing it, exploring whatever corner I'm offered and taking action as well and screaming and fighting and dying and cheering up and betraying and eating and welcoming and organizing parties and telling stories and preparing tea and shrooding my dead ones and getting bored with friends and coloring the skies and escaping death and whatnot?

Leave me alone. I have fucked up facial expressions which follow a train of thoughts that doesn't describe my personal emotions as a separate entity but rather the ones I get as a connected one, specially when I'm wired to a book.

go to sleep go to sleep go to sleep

Reminder to future Koroonfuls: please don't watch FF VII related material of ANY sort before bedtime.
Please don't ruin sleep.

I really should go to sleep. My head is starting to believe it's a comforting idea to be in Cloud's spot right now.

I should go to sleep.

Magnificent by U2

Posting Spree

Final Fantasy VII AC complete on rewatch.

You know what that means....

We made you

I do miss you, man.

Even humankind goes through phases

I've never been a fan of the teenage phase of anything, nor have I understood it or felt compassionate towards it.

My 13 years-old sister is paying for that btw.

Oh well.

A Hard-boiled Wonderland

I saw a chubby girl dressed in pink today after coming back from the gym.

I think I need to read Hard-boiled Wonderland and the End of the World again.

Although I'm starting to think of reversing to audible books to make something out of the two hours commute to and back from work: I get dizzy reading manga on my iPAD in the bus.

On the Prince-Princess roles

I do not think that heroes should be portrayed as strapping young men that save the day by fighting against an overpowering evil beast. Children needn’t grow up believing that they need physical strength to be considered “strong”.

I also find that women are all too often portrayed as weak, helpless, or in need of rescuing and it is often a strong, young prince who comes to save her from her struggles. Many of my movies have strong female leads-brave, self-sufficient girls that don’t think twice about fighting for what they believe in with all their heart.

They’ll need a friend, or a supporter, but never a savior. Any woman is just as capable as being a hero as any man.

----Hayao Miyazaki

Silent Hill in the Wired

How awesome: SE Lain and SH. Man Hereticked oh boy oh boy!

And yet another anime I forgot how much I loved.

Oh Koroonful, thank god for myanimelist.

The Battle of Hogwarts

I was reading that part in a soccer stadium and was so into it that every scream made me sink even more in the tense atmosphere. I think the movie caught some of that.

Harry Potter on rewatch this night with some of my homies.

FF VII AC Badass mode

FF VII AC on rewatch.

Very Mary-Kate: Lost In Translation

Why this blog is going through a video phase. I spend regular time on Youtube.
A Very Mary-Kate series is yet another series that were cool yet not followed through.

Industry cares for people

We did a team-building session at work. The team I was within had the following question?

-"What is the goal of TheCompany?"

It was easy

-"To make money."

It's private limited company operating in technological services. There is no other goal, there CANNOT be another goal.

It turned out there can be. There can be so many actually:

-"To provide jobs."

-"To advance careers in engineering."

-"To lead the engineering market in the kingdom."


I won't type the extended list, I already feel condescendant enough right now, no need to aggravate it.

I do believe Zeitgeist on rewatch for this night.

…So when you say “Industry cares for people”; that’s not true. They can’t afford to be ethical. Your system is not designed to serve the well being of people. If you still don’t understand that, there would be no outsourcing of jobs, if they care about people. Industry does not care. They only hire people ‘cause it hasn’t been automated YET.  

Jaques Fresco

The Freaking FCC

Is it okay to have such music one one's playlist?

What am I saying? It's more awesome than most of the crap the radio keeps playing.

A Old Creation

Not bad at all. With only Photofiltre.

Beautiful reminder of my L days.

Octogénaire

Note to self: don't sing this in public. It's in French. Most of people here get French.

Rerun

On rewatch this evening after a Silent Hill 2 gaming session. Definitely.

SUGARBOOOOOOOY

Showed that old series of Above Aevrage to some friends. They actually enjoyed it!

Too bad they didn't do this until the boys voice changes.

Cheerful morning!

Nothing beats BREAKFAST, except having it with friends. M. is going back to Montréal and since colleagues messed up my diner invitation, I made it up for myself and him by organizing a breakfast. We're going to miss you buddy! You've been a straight shooter and a honest-to-god creature!

Have your breakfast, people. Never skip it or make a habit of doing so...