In Mood for Writing but life is too stuffed

Relax

This administrative limbo took a toll on me. I'm back but not mended. I need to clean myself and make sense of the whirlpool and the fallacy of it all.

Everytime I think I made peace with the notion that life is nothing but fair, that shit happens and that the best action I can take is to take reaction into full awareness, get proactive and make my peace and move on, something comes along the way that is way beyond my built up level and sends me back in that internal pathos. I get stuck in that sense of injustice and who knows how much time I will be focusing on that.

God damn it, I wish leveling up was as clear as in RPGs, putain. Mais bon, I leveled up eventually, and I'm pretty sure it will help in alleviating shit happening, but damn when the next big knock-out will come, I have to remember that I can certainly choose my reaction, deal with it healthy and move on, letting it be a harmless and fertile grounded soil for the back of my mind.

Everything stays